It had been a long 2 years. Walking through divorce (again) and trying to heal from abuse was more than I ever bargained for. After all this time I was weary and battle worn.
I received some amazing words of encouragement and lots of messages of hope and victory. So many people were praying for us. I just knew that this week was the appointed hour where God was going answer all my prayers and put an end to my suffering.
It wasn’t. He didn’t.
The whole experience sent me reeling. I felt sick to my stomach all the time. I wasn’t eating or sleeping. I struggled to keep it together.
It seemed like things went backwards. Like God took something away from us.
I wondered if I’d done something wrong. Did I make a mistake? Was my faith not enough? Did I hear God wrong?
I bet if you have ever walked through a trial you’ve asked yourself some of the same questions.
I don’t have all the answers. But I am resolved in this: God is still in control. He is still fighting my battles. And all His promises are true.
I believe that God is faithful, never makes mistakes and doesn’t change His mind about His children.
But still, I wanted answers. I wanted to feel better. I wanted things to go back to how they were. I wanted revenge!!!
Those were my feelings and thoughts at the time and I needed to be honest with myself and with God about it.
BUT I DIDN’T STAY THERE!
I began to tell myself everything that I know to be true about God. I re-read the words of encouragement I received. I spent some time reading (and crying) in the Psalms. I reached out to close friends for support and prayers.
We are not in this battle alone! Even when God feels far away He is there.
Never give up. No matter how bad it seems. Keep standing. Keep fighting. Stand on God’s word.
DON’T GIVE UP!!!
If you need to cry go ahead. If you need to scream go ahead. Get it out. Just don’t stay there.
God has the final say. It’s not over until He says so
Are you facing something that seems impossible? Keep fighting! Keep praying!
I asked God many questions that week. I was very honest with Him about my struggles. I’m so glad that He can handle it all!
I began to ask Him if there was something He asked me to do that I didn’t.
Did I do something wrong?
What did I miss?
God was clear that I hadn’t done anything wrong in this situation.
Umm, okay God then what gives? If I did everything right where is my blessing?
So let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up. Galatians 6:9 NLT
This verse screamed at me! I had grown tired to doing what was good. It seemed like it wasn’t making a difference. And I mean if I was going to suffer anyway why should I go out of my way to be nice when all I got was evil in return?
Perseverance. That’s why.
What I have learned is that sometimes there are things that we need to learn and it’s not always a quick lesson. That doesn’t mean that God isn’t going to come through. It just means we have to press on.
Trials come to make us strong. To teach us how to fight. To bring us closer to God and His perfect will for us.
No it doesn’t feel good most of the time. But it is for our good.
Look at Jesus. I’m sure it didn’t feel good to be betrayed by Judas. To be humiliated and beaten. But He did it. He pressed on because He knew that something good would come from it.
Same for you and me. If we keep going, especially when it’s hard God will do something that blows your mind!
Hang on! Keep fighting the good fight!
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LaToya Edwards is a Christian Life Coach with a passion for equipping women to grow spiritually through consistent time in prayer and Bible study and by embracing their identity in Christ during life’s trials. She believes that you can come through any trial stronger in your faith, closer to God and with a joy and peace that cannot be shaken!
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